something like this

Eighteen days earlier she's had broken into tears when she'd taken me to the plane to Nepal. "Driving home from the airport," she confessed, " I couldn't stop crying. Saying good-bye to you was one of the saddest things I've have ever done. I guess I knew on some level that you might not be coming back, and it seemed like suck a waste. It seemed so fucking stupid and pointless."
Jon krakauer
Into thin air